It's hard for me to wrap my mind around that it's been 14 years since I last heard my sisters voice. Cortney was my very best friend in life. She brought complete joy to our family and was the most beautiful and awesome person I've ever had the opportunity to know. She died in a horrible car accident on October 23, 1997 and that's the day my world was turned upside down. She took a piece of me with her , she took part of my being, part of my smile, and part of my reason to keep on. I will never forget the void I felt for so long after her death, the numbness that surrounded me and the pain that wouldn't let up.
I wanted answers to why this could happen to such an amazing person, to my family. I wanted to know how I was suppose to go on without my very best friend. It was overwhelming to say the least.
In time I have found comfort and peace but this day each year brings back the same numbness I felt that day, the same void and lump in my throat, that I remember feeling that day when I got the call.
I imagine what it would be like if she were still here, where would she live, who would she be married to, how many kids would she have? I know our kids would be close and that her and I would still have the same strong bond in friendship that we had growing up.
She missed out on so much but gained it all. I can't be mad about where she's at now - If you knew Cortney her moto was to smile and keep on!!! When I see her beautiful face I'm reminded of that.
I love you and miss you SO much Cortney! I will see you again someday!
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